Finding Hope

Harsh memories

Cold thoughts

You think it would heal over time

But in truth the raw pain

Of it all

Just keeps tearing deeper

Until what i feel is crushing me down deeper

Into the broken places of myself

I feel myself shattering

Lost and alone

Slowly part of myself disappears

Gone

My body abandened by an empty heart

A heart laced with poison

Fading into the darkness of the world

The shadows take me

Far away

I know only hate, pain, agony, loss

I scream into the heavy black air

My anger takes control

It rips me apart

Destroys me

I fall to my knees and the pain washes over me Again

New sobs shake my body

But deep within me something comes to life

Something I'd lost a long time ago

Lost in the fog of pain

Hope.

I sat there shaking and shivering

Slowly I regained my strength

I stood up

I didn't feel so hollow anymore

I was still far to broken to work

But now I could at least

See the day when

The loose threads that create me

Would stop pulling apart

I will be Strong enough to bear the pain

After all it never fades

You are left with

Harsh memories and

Cold thoughts

You just have to decide how to use them.